Well, I’m back. You know what is cool? When people tell you (in person) that they love your blog. That’s a good feeling. So thank you to those people!
Anyways… things have been… Good? Sad? Happy? Fun? Scary?… oh ALL OF THOSE THINGS.
Where to start…
1. How about here? Good: Ted and I started and completed the Whole30 plan. It was good! A lot like paleo. Lost a few lbs. Realized how I need to change my eating habits again. Immediately ate tacos when it was over.
2. Sad: I had to make the decision to put down my dog, Dexter, of 10 years due to congenital heart disease. It really sucks when you lose a part of your family like that. I know he was suffering. I know it was time. But I hated letting go. Still, I think of him nightly when he’s not all snuggled up next to me. Or when he isn’t there to bark at me when I leave without him. It’s hard. Taylor took it surprisingly well. She asked about heaven a little. She asked once if he was going to come back. Now she asks to buy stuffed animal dogs that look like him.
3. Happy: Overall and in general, everyday has its happy moments. Some days more than others, of course. I am loving watching Taylor grow. She started kindergarten and the way she has grown and is thriving in school makes me so happy. She’s smart, independent, kind, confident, and inquisitive. She makes me happy.
4. Fun: I finally got to visit San Diego again after too many years passed. We went to the zoo, Coronado beach, and ate and stayed in Old Town. I used to say I was meant to live in San Diego. I could feel it in my soul. Now it’s too busy and expensive for “old person me”. That’s okay! We get to have fun there while we visit instead!
5. Scary: Brace yourself for a long story. So we went to San Diego. Yes, IT ENDED UP being fun. The traveling to get there? NOT FUN. SCARY! Ok. So. My mom, my husband, my kids, and I pile into the 1995 Chevrolet suburban. This thing has miles on it. It’s obviously old. But my parents are very good at keeping old things in really good condition. My dad changes the oil, puts gas in it, and pumps up the tires in preparation of the trip. Let the last task linger in your mind for a minute…
We get to Primm, Nevada, approximately 20 minutes from my house, and the whole enormous vehicle starts shaking like it’s about to take off. It’s bad. We don’t know what’s happening. We drive all the way to Barstow like this, get off and go to the only tire store that is open. The guy says we have bubbles in both of the back tires. (Yes, this is a thing. Bubbles.) So we pick the tire with the worst bubble, and put the spare on it. Continue on. Still shaking. Luckily make it past the death trap that is the Cajon pass. We get to Rancho Cucamonga, and the other tire blows on the I-15 South freeway. This freeway is insane. We pull off with *just* enough room to not get pummeled by passing traffic. Ted tells everyone to get out because he’s been watching too many car crash videos on you tube. I figure it’s probably not a bad idea, so we pull my sleeping children out of their car seats to climb over the guard rail on the freeway. We are super cool…. the tow truck comes in like 20 minutes, which was awesome. He lets out air in the other bubble tire that was taken off first and puts it on. We get going again. Still bumpy. 10 minutes down the road, in Ontario, the spare tire blows off the tread. WTF!!! Someone is really trying to hurt us! *cue major family meltdown from children and adults* Next tow won’t be here for TWO HOURS, and will only transport 2 adults and 1 child, leaving behind one adult and one child on the freeway without a car. What?! We cancel the tow and decide to attempt the 8 mile ride to the nearest hotel with a bubble tire and a no-tread spare tire. We made it! Got four new tires the next day, and only got stuck in a traffic jam for one extra hour the next day. Note to self: Do not drive suburban. Do not drive to San Diego. Always fly there. Thanks.
I’ve had a few crazy and mind blowing months. I’m so glad I’m still here to tell you about them! All about my emotions. I have them. A lot. Too much? Oh whatever! I believe in letting it all out. You will regret keeping things bottled up. Trust me. Tell people how you are feeling. Get personal. Communicate! Without communicating our feelings with one another, you will lack connections, you will miss opportunities to feel something deeper that you didn’t even realize you wanted or needed to feel. It’s life and death. It’s that important.
Also, since I started writing this while it was still September…
In honor of Childhood cancer awareness #gogoldforcancer
In honor of too many lives lost and many more lives that should continue to see that pretty glow #suicideawareness #suicideprevention
Spread the good word and find that pretty glow!